Metaphorically speaking, most of my life I have been searching for ‘that sunshine place.’ That state of mind where I am completely happy when I finally get there. I do understand no-one is happy 100% of the time. However, I view myself as a melancholy person. Don’t get me wrong…I am not grumpy, chronically unhappy or depressed, but I have a lot of sadness in my soul. On the exterior, I may appear happy and sometimes even carefree, but that melancholy is always there and eventually finds me. My life has been a series of peaks and valleys, as I suppose most people have experienced in their own lives. With me though, there has definitely been more valleys. My own mother said “I am like rubber band”….I always manage to bounce back because I am so strong.
The thing with being characterized as being so resilient, is that people always feel no matter what happens, you will always be OK. They look out for the so-called ‘weaker ones.’ The problem with that line of reasoning is – no human being is invincible. Adversity can make us stronger and it does, but sometimes we can also become wary and begin to wonder what else awaits us around the corner. On the bright side, I am deeply emphatic because of my life’s experiences. I find myself always being drawn to people who have also had a life of adversity. The souls who are searching, like myself. And, I still always look for the silver lining in any situation or experience.
At various points in my life, I felt I was pretty close to being, or even been in that ‘sunshine place.’ Alas, it was not to be. So, I continue to search for that perpetual sunshine. In the meantime, when I come across it, I grab it and hold on tight and enjoy the ride, understanding, it may some-day elude me again.
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